shoot the player

man, its Halloween already. I love this holiday, by far my favorite.
I also hate it becaues it means that October is ending. And this October didn't fall short of amazing. I'll recap it all later when I'm done stuffing my face with green banana muffins.

any who, just wanted to post this video because I have fallen in love with the project.

shoottheplayer.com

Some of the video's aren't that great I'll admit, but the idea and the content is great.
It makes me happy to be a DIY filmmaker. My boss asked to see my camera reel today (I currently edit here) and afterwards he said "what the hell are you doing here!"

Felt nice.
I miss shooting and sometimes I can't help it feel like my skills and ideas are going to waste. And I look around at the older people in the company with tons of talent but nothing to show for it and it kills me. I don't want to end up there. And I feel like I'm getting older cause I've been responsible and haven't done anything for fun in the last six months. And the work I'm doing now is good but nothing creative and I would never show it to anyone.

Any ways, go get inspired by something, anything. the city usually does it for me. peace.



An Horse: Listen from Shoot The Player on Vimeo.

I feel economically rapped.

oh, man. Two weeks in and October has not disapointed yet.
Can't wait to track the recap. any who, can't wait for t n s this weekend, and all my old friends.

For the love of sunny

Today, it really felt like winter.
I love the strange feeling.
Like you can feel the electricity in your atoms repelling against each other.
As if they were trying to make a greater connection between the dreams and the realities.
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Paper thin walls.
(really good no age article.)

http://www.paperthinwalls.com/listeningparty/index?id=24

"Randall: Having a positive outlook in a punk band or anything you do, being a mom, running a liquor store, going to classes has a huge influence in how well you will do in life. If you feel like what you are doing is important and has value you will generally find evidence to support your theory. DIY is not letting other people place value on what you do or believe. There is a place in this world for everyone and everyone has a right to exist in everyone else’s world. I was surprised to find that little old ladies in the Midwest had respect for a van full of smelly, funny-looking punk kids from California if we had respect for them. Their points of view were obviously different than ours about certain issues, but I learned that if we talked to each other as people and not as assumed stereotyped roles we had a lot to talk about and relate to each other."

OCTOBER

What a great day.

outlined and did the entire rough pre-production for a spec cocorosie video.

I found this great super 8 filmmaker that totally makes my mind run.

http://www.dagiebrundert.de/Dagie.html

"still 14"

Another week passed by and I kinda think it’s been wasted,
And I can’t find my way off this carousel.
While looking out my window I felt a strange sensation
That if I don’t change now, I fear I never will.

It’s been nineteen years, but I feel like I’m still fourteen
So confused and so naive but not yet broken
And everyone is telling me exactly what they think that I should be,
And I just don’t know who I should believe

And they say “Time’s running out and now you gotta make decisions
And no you cannot major in playing kickball.”
And I wish that I could say “well you know, that’s not my problem”
But then I wonder “is anything at all?”

I see some people change. And they call it progression.
And while looking back at me, they have a strange expression.
But a year ago I imagined that I couldn’t live without certain friends
Well, it’s sad to see how much has changed since then.

-tmle

I feel like a coward. I only make things at night when no one is around. I don't understand why I care. I miss last year. I miss the people I used to love. I miss old friends. I miss being creative. I miss getting my hands dirty. I miss making things for people. No one appreciates things anymore. I want my freedom back. I feel like I've been saying all the wrong things at all the wrong times. I feel like my girlfriend deserves someone better. No one seems happy anymore. I want to take care of myself but there never seems to be anytime. I started writing again. I wrote two scripts this week. I hate going out. I miss late night walks on pico. I hate that not all ideas seem possible anymore, leaving you depressed with the emptiness of passion.

and expectations become a horrible burden.

Reason to vote By Geoff of Defiance, Ohio.

Reason #2 is that while Republican Vice Presidential candidate Sarah Palin was mayor of Wasilla, Alaska, the police chief (who was hired after Palin fired the previous chief) made it the policy of the police department to charge survivors of sexual assualt for their own rape kit (the examination and collection of evidence that is used if survivors want to pursue criminal charges after they've been asaulted). In most places, survivors are not charged for this.

In stark contrast, Democratic vice presidential candidate Joe Biden was instrumental in drafting and passing the Violence Against Women Act which provides support to many national, state, and local programs that provide support for survivors of violence:

Senator Biden wrote the ground-breaking Violence Against Women Act (VAWA) in the 1990s that set the national agenda on criminalizing violence against women and holding batterers truly accountable. It encouraged states to set up coordinated community responses to domestic violence and rape; was the catalyst for passage of hundreds of state laws prohibiting family violence; and provided resources to set up shelters so battered women abused by husbands and boyfriends had a place to go. The law also established the national hotline that over 1.5 million abused women have called for help.

I know that such legislation and the programs it supports does not go far enough to address the root causes of gender violence in our culture, but I strongly believe that there is a huge difference in the cultural and political context that is created by the different candidates. In the case of Biden, the state is urged to support survivors of violence and in the case of Palin, the state acts to victimize survivors and place a financial burden on people going through some really difficult experiences.

So Fu**ing Good!! ahaha.

YACHT - Summer Song from Jona Bechtolt on Vimeo.

Moenie And Kitchi

signed to Fat Cat.
Now in company with mum, no age, and sigur ros.
The new album doesn't sound as organic as the demos but still not over produced.